CameNo

Someone said, "Guess who was there and wearing cameo?"
And I said, "You just ruined my day."

Ignorance my friends is bliss. I love fiction and creating stories and putting people who have hurt me in very unfortunate places. I was finally becoming content that the kid who stomped on my heart many a times had his own heart and soul, frozen, solid under lots and lots of snow and ice somewhere in North Dakota with missiles and dumb air force stuff but no he's back in town. I'd say I'm not going to let him bring me down but I'm a novelist not a liar. Some say all novelist are is good liars and that my friends is A LIE. I am one of the most terrible liars you will ever meet, my parents know my life because I tell them it even when sometimes perhaps it'd be best if I didn't. I just get uncomfortable keeping things that really aren't necessary to be kept. I'm not a bad "secret keeper", bad friend but when it comes to myself I suck at keeping things under wraps. And so I will tell you I continue to let this stupid kid I never dated piss me off and tear me up every time he comes to mind or worse, TO TOWN.

Seeing him would suck. Just hearing that someone saw him, SUCKS. It's impossible to explain the extent of that relationship but I'll tell you this: I don't want his love or apologies I just want recognition that he was and continues to be completely unfair and downright a jerk. Immaturity being the main factor is what is most pathetic and man it is prevalent. The thing is, ranting like this, makes it seem changable, seem like I'm fighting for something. truth. These are facts. This situation is done but he's here and it makes me cry and I hate myself so much for that. I am so so pathetic for letting that happen because he is no good and I know it.