Poem.

I wrote a poem today because I had to, and sometimes, that doesn't go so well; today, it went well. I love when poetry flows out as easily as a story and with me it very rarely does, one of my motivations for taking my poetry course, pushing my limits perhaps giving myself the chance to let that flow become more frequent. Anyways, the poem. the poem was to be inspired by an object we were to bring in to class... mine never made it to class but I still had to write the poem and a fine poem it is.

Creature
Quit that racket!
Never heard nobody who writ' loud as that!
Pen or pencil suit jus fine,
won't wake a sleepin' babe neither!
B'sides got them fancy computing machines,
replacement of those creatures.
Why you be writin' so damn loud?!

Only some GET IT.
Writers.
A special breed.
Take to such creatures with their
loud,
clanking,
keys.
Hunching over them,
fabricating
stories, tales.
Master weavers of words,
the only ones to whom these machines
will concede.

Fingers force down their circular keys
with a
PUNCH
Advancing their carriage they,
regurgitate small black type eaten for lunch.

The writer writes away,
the haters of noise,
machine's outdated features...
The writer understands,
the elusive,
typewriter creature.

Psych-o-counsel

I honestly believe that to some degree people in the mental health and "life advising" professions like the power they hold over other people. Based upon experiences they seem to often divulge information at "opportune" or NOT SO opportune times, which really honestly have a grand affect on people's lives. This may be considered part of the therapy or a good tactic but in my opinion be upfront, if you have information or an opinion of value with which you plan to advise me, hit me with it, all at once, I can take it!

Bennington is grand. My guidance counselor...only sometimes....actually never grand just tolerable and to my liking occasionally. I feel so angry right now I shouldn't be blogging...plus the anger and frustration which came out of today's meeting is conjuring a migraine and it isn't looking good, I'm going to have to take migraine medicine. Ick
:-( It just upsets me that I got in to my dream school, my heart is already there and she was all happy and proud and thought that was a good decision all a long and now all of a sudden she's telling me I haven't thought enough and "is this what I really want...?" and she thinks it may not be the best financially despite the love, I might have to sacrifice in her opinion and blah blah blah. Bottom line: I'm not giving up my dream school for a financial aid package that saves me 3,000. not doing it. SO THERE!

TENS...nine...eight...

I definitely want to be sleeping but a particular monster, of the pain variety is making that currently impossible. Once personified as a fuzzy but sketchy orange character it's one of those nights where I'm hollering for him to leave me alone and he's laughing. I'm TENSing and it is helping, but nevertheless this takes time because although I could fall asleep with it on because it makes me feel so much better...that would be back. It has automatic shut-off! No fear! But...I'd probably get tangled in wired and rip the electrodes off...haha... BAD PLAN. So...I blog and wait for the monster to be forced into submission by the modulating electric current which honestly is comparable to a soothing massage. I loveeeeeee it. It still astounds me how electricity can take such intense deep rooted, ridiculous pain and soothe it into submission. Given, when I turn the TENS off relief could semi-remain or no-longer exist in any form. There is still hints of pain there, as usual, daily life around these parts, but the pain of the past few days, tonight especially, was getting to that going crazy stage. I mean my normal level would be that for most people so let's think a moment... no wonder I can't sleep. URGH. Of course it is doing its pretty color show too, bright reddish/purple and freezing cold, though a bit better since I showered and am TENSing. For those of you completely lost... we're discussing a crazy pain disease, RSD...learned about it...began the battle...going on 6 years this October. No breaks from pain ever, fun times. I don't usually whine about it, on the new "happy blog". the old blog focused on it, but I'm not "supposed" to do that. It is just what has led me here, to blogging this evening so, it is alright. I'm indifferent, same old same old, I know what needs to be done just annoyed, happens to the best of us ;-p

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Bookish

I just finished reading The Things They Carried and I liked it but it was in many ways puzzling. I suppose that's what I like and call "thought provoking", but I guess the jury is still out really on it. Definitely not calling it a favorite, am not completely blown away but it is still simmering. Next up is 100 Years of Solitude and I'm pretty excited about it! More likely than not I'll end up reading that and Jodi's new novel Sing Me Home at the same time but, I can handle it! I'm really enjoying my increased level of reading, I've missed it and it is really something I love so much, it helps keep me grounded I guess? I don't know? I just like it and it relaxes me while still stimulating my brain cells. Hoorah!

A quick list of must reads for you bloglings:

The Book Thief Markus Zusak

Forest for the Trees Betsy Lerner

Forgotten Fire Adam Bagdasarian

Plain Truth Jodi Picoult

Handle With Care Jodi Picoult

Milkweed Jerry Spinelli

The Giver Lois Lowry

The Soloist Steve Lopez

This is of course by no means an exhaustive list. I encourage the exploration of my Shelfari "bookshelf", which is posted at the bottom of the blog. I again also urge the exploration of the site in its entirety, so cool, I'm a bit obsessed! Lots of great books out there, get reading!

I though, must get sleeping, school is back. However only 104 days till high school is gone forever, so I suppose I could just suck it up and enjoy the time left ;-p

Night bloglings.

Readings Bs, Getting No Zzzzs

It's 3am and I haven't slept a wink. However I have finished an over 500 page novel that I was really aching to finish. I read about 250 pages today (well technically yesterday and "this morning") and am quite proud. I'm wanting to start my next book but it's hard for me to jump right in immediately...I mean after I sleep yes...or even after some hiatus of hours but just not immediately you have to kinda "let go" of the book you have just finished, briefly "grieve it", "kiss it goodbye" and then you move on. Next I'll be starting The Things They Carried which I have been meaning to read for quite some time now. I hope to finish it in like two days because I'll have a batch of new books coming (including Jodi's newest which came out yesterday...that feels like today cuz I haven't slept...MARCH 1st) and it's not a huge book, like 250 page range. and heck I'm on vacation! Found a really good quote today and it definitely sums up my approach to vacation in all its reading glory:

"I've never known any trouble an hour's reading didn't assuage."
-Charles De Secondat

I failed to officially note that I added a new cool gadget to the blog that being my "shelfari" bookshelf. Shelfari is a super fun website where you share with people what you are reading/have read/plan to read and can discuss books books and more books. Feeling very bookish these days...influenced by the site perhaps. Still feeling writerish as well, no fear. The noveling neurotic hasn't left the building.

The Ole' 1 2

I'm considering taking up boxing. Normally when looking for stress relief and fitness purposes one takes up kick-boxing I hear...but the kicking thing although super good for my core and my legs...not so good for the RSDness so not so sure on that one. RSD makes life interesting, you have to spin things to work for it but at the same time not be working for it, be living your life the way you want and to the fullest, not letting it be in charge. It is however, inevitable that you don't do things to put yourself in extreme pain...besides don't think my dad would back me on the "kick" portion... but seriously I have a good pitch for boxing! I need exercise badly, for one thing and for another I need stress relief, TA-DA! It is really good cardio and stress relief and my upper body and core would rock if I stuck with it! I really am quite pumped and game to try it...migraines permitting but, I think if I work on getting stress out and getting healthier, easing back in to exercise... they will ease their way out a bit? Hopefully. AH it is far to late to be blogging, far to "early" in reality. So that's about the bulk of the excitement I suppose. ;-p