The longevity of the pride and triumph which follows completing a NanoWriMo novel can only last so long. It is near certain that in that one-month minimum hiatus from that boggling book, you'll sink into a slump. Oh wow, I need a life.
I'm feeling wicked not depressed...but lacking in desire, or determination or something. It's this weekend that it has been this way. Honestly, it has nothing to do with the lack of novel but I could stand to be writing a lot more, it'd help. It has to do with denial and anger phases of grief. I'm finally making a very necessary detachment from someone I've forcefully kept in my life way past his welcome. I've never been treated exceptionally well by this person even though I'm the first one to make excuses for him. I've spent way too long trying to convince the world and myself we're meant to be together. I'm tired of living in a Taylor swift song and so I'm angry and mean and upset and just acting stupid. They tell me...on the other side of this I'll meet that complete detachment, that freedom that triumph once again and boy do I hope so. He's only holding me back. No, correction, my sickening attachment, my love for someone who is undeserving of my love, is holding me back. So, I'm letting the stages fall as they will and in the meanwhile attempting life tasks ;-)
OH MY GOSHHHH. I have a new found passion...unfortunately, at the moment I ca only take part once a week in this activity but let me tell you I'm addicted... hula-hooping. It sounds so trivial but I'm in a CLASS for it. I can do tricks. It burns 110-130 calories every 10 minute session. It's fun, exciting and addicting. I'm getting a hula-hoop hopefully very shortly because it's something good for me and I'm addicted! If only I could get addicted to not eating in such copious amounts... ah. I'm just going to hula-hoop more then I don't have to eat less ;-)
Oh wow. As it has been hinted at...I need a life, but hey I aim to serve, with useless bits of information in a blog which is hardly kept up at all...
I bid you adieu! <3 ! :)
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