Empowerment

i know it's late but hell I don't care. I just reread my blog declaring my freedom and damn it makes me smile. it doesn't make me cry. this is so good. I feel so empowered, that I have finally self-motivated. I'm doing what I want and just looking for fun and excitement. I'm not worrying. i like not being worried. Of course some of that comes with me being on vacation but I think seeing people at school will also make me realize how far I have suddenly come. I've let go and wow it brings back so much energy and such a feeling of free.

I'm free, free free. hehehehe.

And I'm writing. I'm really writing prolifically at the moment and I take that as a good sign. A very good sign. Only 2 days until the big-tim. revision, editing. rewrites. and beyond! wooo. Okay it's really not THAT exciting but hey I'm doing it, that's the exciting part. I'm self-motivating.

I'm also blogging, at a very bizare hour because my sleep schedule is non-existant hehehe. I could use some friends time, vacation brings a lot of that family "closeness" which really drives you insane after a while. My sister is having people over so I'm thinking if I can tip-toe my way around mother (it's pretty much impossible) I'll get out and see people. It's so nice to realize I have people I actually wouldn't mind seeing and WANT to see. I especially want to see my bestest friend everrrr but she too is a busy girl so we'll seeeee. seee. seee. seee.

Okay wow, I need to stop. lol. I'm going to read, forrest for the trees. It's pretty good so far...well let's say, the introduction was a killer! haha. I think it's going to be really very cool though and perfect to "slide", (more like jump) into editing shortly. It's written by an editor...to writers. Pretty darn cool if I do say so myself.


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