Step 1: Not OCD

Scheduling, planning, organization are incredibly important to a fully functional life; spontaneity is the spice of life. A balance needs to be found between the extremes of micro-managing your life including what is never going to be in your control to never planning, goal setting or thinking ahead and getting into very tough but easily avoidable predicaments. I'm someone who freaks out at my inability to organize. I want to, I know I need it, but I'm lazy. I need to learn that if I muster up the ambition to plan that it will save me a lot in the long run. I am really working on that. School is quickly approaching, just over a week until day 1. This freaks me out a lot, but the key is benefiting from the freak out and letting frivolous freak-out go. For example breaking the worry down from "freaking out" to specific concerns. Like, time management and a fear of getting overstressed. Schedule my time for school best I can, otherwise there's no way to know how to handle the situation until it arises. Or, needing an IEP. I may need one, but I can't get it until school starts. And I MAY NOT need one, so there. I've also forced myself to implementing a healthy sleep schedule, it's hard but so so important to keeping other woeful matters away. Like pain.

Tonight is a last supper of sorts but I'm not upset at all. I mean, I know what I have planned out to help me succeed will definitely not go exactly as it is planned but plans are a guide not a prison sentence. The computer is to remain on the desk beginning tonight through the rest of the school year. (ha we know how that will work.) SELF DISCIPLINE! lol. Sleep schedule, GET INTO IT no if ands or buts. Know what my school time schedule will roughly look like, have everything prepared for the beginning of school. And benefit from worry don't let it drown me. Oh yea and there's still more than a week of summer, RELAX and HAVE FUN :)

And that my friends is a healthy plan ;-)