Teenagers gosh. I need to not overthink but my teenage hormones perhaps are getting the best of me. The sad part i, I can't brush it off as that. It feels like something more, which I HATE. There's hardware store boy...who is a really amazing person and I could stand a chance with. He's someone new and it's exciting to feel that way. Then there's old standby. I can't call him that. He's just him. I MISS him so much. We used to talk daily now it's close to never. This is kind of my fault...I scare him away with the fact that I can't get over how I feel. Finally I was over it, because he does really DUMB stuff. But... now the dreams are back. I don't want him in my dreams. He's just him. My friend who should stay that way but everytime a see one of his relationships crash and burn I can't help but think someday he'll realize what was right in front of him the entire time.
Nothing will happen with either because I'm good on my own enjoying summer to the absolute fullest. Sunshine, a license, exercise and THE BEACH. The love of my life and I went to the beach yesterday, it was amazing. We acted foolish and just fully enojoyed ourselves. We did model poses and gymnastic stunts, froze in the water and attempted to build sandcastles, critiqued the lifeguard, and just walked the gorgeous length of the beach.
Teenagehood is filled with new found conflict, as you flail around trying to figure out who YOU are. Teenagehood brings joys that you only have those short years to experiance. Teenagehood brings carefree to responsibility. It's just a mess, but all you can do is make the best of it. :p
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